To our sweet baby in Heaven

Dear one~

Though we never got to meet you, we are so sad to lose you. We miss hearing your heartbeat, beating fast and strong. We miss your sweet sounds while you sleep. We're sad we never got to hold your warm body and stroke your silky hair.

There are so many things about you we wish we could have known. Were you a girl or boy? Were you easy going or strong willed? We're sad we never got a chance to see you grow up. We wish we could have known your likes and dislikes.

The confirmation that you were on the way was a complete surprise! We were looking forward to having a child, we just thought that it wouldn't happen for another year. But as soon as we knew you were growing in your mama's belly, we couldn't be happier! Not once did we ever wish for your tiny life to stop growing and flourishing.

For 10 weeks, we and others prayed for you to be safe and healthy and tried to do all we could to protect you. We counted the weeks and tried to keep track of your development. You grew so fast and changed so much in such a short amount of time! The loving hand of your Perfect Heavenly Father carefully knit your tiny body together.

Sweet Babe, we don't know why things changed. We don't know why your Master Craftsman didn't continue to build you in your mother's womb. It is so easy to wish things were different. So easy to wonder if we could have done something to protect you or wonder if we missed something important that you needed. It is hard to not let guilt creep in...because we desired so much to love you, nurture you, and care for you. But we have realized that even if we dedicated all our energy to give you a perfect home, there would always be imperfections because your parents are imperfect. Despite all our attempts we would still fail.

So we believe, out of God's graciousness, He decided to give you a perfect home. Not a cabin or a camper or a house, but a mansion in Heaven. There with our loved ones who have already arrived. There where there is no sickness, or crying or pain. You will never have to experience these. And though we are sad and cry because of all we have lost, we rejoice over the love, joy and peace you are now experiencing. We love you, sweet one, and are excited to meet you in Heaven.

So much love~
Dad and Mom